I don't know how many times I reached for the POWER button to the car radio, only to remember... Oh yeah, I'm silencing my life...
And then we come to my heart.
I think I have one of those "cue screens," the ones used to prompt newscasters, constantly running in my head. "Do this...think about this...Don't forget this!" And on and on it goes. No dead batteries here! I have THE energizer bunny inside my brain, ensuring the constant flow of thoughts and plans and desires and dreams... Boy. Maybe I'm a lost cause.
Or maybe not. Maybe silence takes practice. Maybe shutting my mouth (or turning off my brain) is like a muscle that needs to be flexed and strengthened. Maybe I have just been too lazy (or selfish, or ignorant, or....) to do the workout, and now I'm trying to run a marathon. It doesn't work that way.
I can't count the number of times this week that I told God how much I want to hear what He has to say. Because I do! I WANT to quiet my heart so that He actually has a chance to get a word in edgewise. Oh, how I long to obey Him...but I have to HEAR what He says in order to obey. So my prayer, this past week and moving onward, is that God would teach me how to QUIET. How to quiet my life (removing needless distractions and activities that are outside of His call for me NOW). How to quiet my spirit (bringing areas of sin to the throne and handing over idols that line the halls of my heart). How to quiet my prayer life (can't I just SIT with Him, without constantly asking for things?). How to quiet my tongue (is every word that falls from my mouth REALLY that necessary?). How to QUIET. May it be so, and may God give me the strength to do the WORK of "flexing" my solitude and silence "muscles."
Friends, how was your week of silence and solitude? Did you do the work of creating silence in your life, or were you overrun by the noise of the world and in your head? Was this week an encouragement to you, or a struggle?
Please share your thoughts!